Me: Remember the journal entry we had weeks ago asking to rate our self esteem between 1-10?
Classmate: Yeah.
Me: Well, I asked a friend. And she said 0!. I was so mad.
Classmate: Hmm, that's not nice... I'd probably be an 8 or 9.
Me: ohh.. mine wouldn't be that high.
Classmate: nahhh why not?... Do you think positive?
Me: I try to. It's hard for me not to think of the negative side.
Classmate: It's good to think positively. There are always a bright side of things.... Like one of my friends got into a fight with a guy. But the positive side to that is that person wasn't even a good friend at the start.... Try to be optomistic when you look at me..
Me:..... (speechless)

Summer class has been semi boring  until today. It was probably the most intense conversation I've had with anybody in this class.... Or maybe to anybody.. Especially, to somebody I don't really know well.

It's odd that my classmate told me this. and this was only our second time actually talking.... I usually TRY to smile to others.. But I guess I've been upset lately and haven't payed attention to how i've been acting around people...

I'm tired of being upset towards people. I'm tired of feeling bad for myself. I am done sobbing in room and saying to myself that nobody cares. I deserve to be happy and meet new friends. Nobody will know..

 This week, I had to write a Psychology paper about sixth sense. I researched further the meaning of it all, communicating from the spiritiual world. I was thinking about hearing all of the bizzare stories and my repeating dreams of my loved one who passed away about eight months ago. It is unexplainable still even how much or little evidence we have in our own hands. So decide for yourself... We knew about our ordinary five senses.. Sense of vision, hearing, touch, tasting, and smelling.. but we know very little about this one amazing sense.

Do you believe in sixth sense? Dispite that scientific researchers stated that everybody was born with a sixth sense. Do you think it's possible?

Could not resist posting this picture. It's one of my favorite movies, "Sixth Sense".. Haley Joel was a good actor, the boy's character being able to communicate with spirits.

This afternoon, I heard your message on my phone. Hearing your voice gave me feeling of relief and sadness, that it even gave me a few tears. I never thought how much I've been missing you. It's been too long since we've talked to eachother. I hesitated for a second to call you again. Lately, I've lost my faith in friendships. But I can't forget all the memories that are uncomparable. We've been through unexpected incidents together. Without you I wouldn't be able to stand today. Despite the long distance we have between us, I won't let any of it get away from our true relationship.

I'm so glad we were able to talk today, it has brighten up my day.